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Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Stress Soup: Self-indulgent Whining

Well it didn't take long for life to revert to the stressful mess it was prior...

Work has been super-busy for the past 18 months, which is unusual. I think there are usually down-periods in consultancies. But I can't remember the last time I didn't have enough work to keep me busy working 60hr weeks for the forseeable future. I think I am around 95-100% utilisation at the moment, and have been for a while.

Even with our new team member, there just seems to be more and more work piling up. It is kind of stressful. I spent all of today fixing random things that went wrong. I didn't even touch what I was supposed to do (which was urgent), and I added even more to my to-do list. Most of it is urgent and all of it is for the nightmare-project. Ughh!

Then there is my thesis, which I haven't thought about since December. I am way behind on that. I have basically wasted the last 6 months (time and $) plus now I suspect I haven't been well enough to think/work properly for a couple of years at least.

I am also completely broke at the moment, which doesn't help. All the additional expenses and not being paid for a month is stretching things to the limit. So I have to work full-time even though I don't want to. I don't have any leave left and leave without pay is not an option anymore.

And I get an email asking me about auditioning for a band, which is nice, but they practice 2-3 times a week! That is completely out of the question.

Plus I burnt 6 pieces of toast in a row! Not a good sign.

So basically it seems that on top of being alone forever, which is another complete topic, the rest of my life looks like it is going to be all work and no play and not enough time or money. How depressing.

You can't always tell how the rest of your life is going to be. But most things take a decision, unconscious or consciously.

Bad luck about the toast though.
Ah, here we go. Found this on Jonathan Cainers site:

Why do we never run out of things to worry about? For precisely the same reason that we never run out of things to be grateful for.

We live in an abundant universe. One way or another, it always has 'more in store' for us.

How then can we make sure that we get more of what we want, and less of what we don't want? We can't! All we can do is make more of the stuff that we want more of and treat the things we want less of, less seriously.
Thanks for the reminder. I sometimes have trouble controlling my thoughts :-)

Cool site. It is just as well I am on a budget...otherwise I'd be buying yet another horoscope!
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